this life of mine sux..as u know it

alo one and all...

As per usual, yours faithfully woke up late again. No big surprises there. Whoopee. Rite. Whatever.

Meet su wen in depression mode.

I had a really bad night yesterday. No questions asked, please. I seem to be in my rather biteful mood. With God's grace, it won't last. Life thoroughly sucks for me rite now. Words can NOT describe my true feelings, BUT the best i've got for now is being depressed, and to please let me die and rot in the arms of misery. There, i said it. For those of you who have me on your MSN messenger list, it's my nick for the time being. Yea, it sounds downright pessimistic and downright dumb and downright pathetic and most of all, downright, totally, not me. But whatever. I'm not bothered for now.

There'll be a time, somewhere not long from now, where i'll look back at this entry of mine, and probably say, what IS up with you, mate?! GET A LIFE! Don't screw up man! But that's then. THIS is NOW.

We can't always see everythin in life from every point of view. People slip and fall sometimes. No one is perfect, ALTHOUGH there ARE times, i seem to act rather over the stupidity limit.

BUT hey, i ALWAYS tell myself,

SO WHAT if you acted stupid?

SO WHAT if you embarassed yourself?

SO WHAT if ppl look down on you?

SO WHAT if ppl poke and make fun of you all the time?

SO WHAT .....????

SO WHAT .....????

RITE. IF ONLY that can just sink in to my brain, then life would be better. A lot better. Period (no arguments there).

To tell you the truth, i never took insults harshly. Was never bothered by them. Yea, i get it once in awhile, but honestly, i think life would be a total bore without insults being thrown around ever so often. Insults make the world go round. Insults are good for the soul, makes you realize who and what u are. Insults help you bond with friends (no joke there. really) Insults ....this...Insults..that...(i think you get the idea :P)

SO anyways, you guys must be wonderin if my depressed mood has got any connections to being insulted.

The answer to that question??

NO-LAH!!!!

Let's just say, i get this every once in a while. This "once in a while" varies. Once a month, twice a month. Probably even once in three months.

TIME is my major problem. It triggers this mood of mine. For those of you who know me, you have to admit, i'm a tiga suku child (as my mother puts it).

YEA, that's it. I'm CHILDISH.

Thing is, i like being childish. Like, a lot. I mean, i don't act childishly on purpose, i just AM childish. That's just me. DEAL WITH IT!!

I'll admit my problem here openly.

I DON'T WANT TO GROW UP.

LOL.

WOW..there u have it. FIRST laugh of the day.

Yes. I know it sounds absolutely cheesy. BUT..

WHAT TO DO? MUST STILL GROW UP WHAT. SO SAD FOR WHAT? HAPPY A BIT LAH

haha...I'm just having an early mid-life crisis. Somehow, i feel extraordinarily old. Time flies by. Appreciate what u have. Do what you have to. Focus on what matters most.

Life WILL get better.

TIME IS PRECIOUS.(ironically, i'm the world's greatest procrastinator) :P (just being the philosophical me)

SO THATS IT.

THE END of my biteful mood. I feel loads better. Seriously. Bloggin is therapy.

Meet su wen in happy mode.(AS USUAL)

did i fail to mention how my depression mode lasts for only..well..by maximum 2 hours?

AND AGAIN, THERE YOU HAVE IT.

A short span of depression.

The RIGHT way to live. Don't let anythin EVER get you down.

LIFE TOTALLY ROX!!(well..except that bit bout assignments, test, yada yada yada......and etc.)

till then..

SU WEN..............OUT!!!!!!! (ryan seacrest style)

:P