the beginning of sem 2

hah!
slap my ass and call me a bitch, but i'm here online blogging away while i am drawn nearer to my death.
a deadly horrible one.

exam's tmr, done not much for it and i've lost my drive to study any further.
-_-"

it's like i'm asking to be killed.

but it's all complicated, eh?
have loads to do and i want to get going and study it all,
yet the other part of me has just lost it's motivation and wants to concentrate on anything non-uni related.
gee

see?
this is where procrastination gets you.
oh gawd pray with me ppl and save meeeeeeee

it's as if i've reached the point of being desensitized of exams.
exams don't bother me any more, after times and times of sitting for them, the last minute revision, stress , craming and the super duper weird hard question papers, i no longer fear the plunging feeling of the heart whenever i read a question which i don't know the answer to.

and to think that that same plunging feeling of not beingable to answer the question used to be the only drive that motivated me to study in secondary school.

oh gawd.
so teruk..