stupid thoughts..

you know how ppl use symbols to replace the word love??

like

i love you becomes:

i heart you
i <3 3 =" love...">3 you mean i hate you??

where >3 = hate...

damn cool rite???

i don't really say i hate you, mostly because hate is too strong a word for me.
and when i use the phrase "i don't like" it makes me feel like a small ass of a kid. like i'm being so fussy as to prefering to "not like" something than to learning to put up with something.

so that's where >3 comes in.
where it's an average between hate and don't like.

where i say i hate you, but i don't really mean it.

see??

i >3 you.

.....

...and ppl always think i use my brains for impractical things.

HAH!!

lol

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...
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and then i thought about i = 3 you??

OMG..don't even go there.......

what lies in the mind of a child..

i remember the way i was brought up.

i was brought up under a roof which maintained the importance of discipline.
i was brought up under a roof which maintained the importance of education.
i was brought up under a roof which maintained the importance of rationality.

all of three which i have strayed away from at times. i mean, who CAN stick to all three ALL the time, huh??

do you remember what it was like, looking at the elder ppl doing the things you couldn't do??

like how they could finish that one whole big bowl of rice when you couldn't even finish your small little one.
like how they could type really fast without looking at the keyboard and how you had to type each letter at a time, a finger at a time, all the while looking for the letters.
like how they could reach all the switches in the house while you had to tip toe or jump a few times before reaching it.

i remember always thinking that when i grew up, i can/will be able to do that..

and i forgot all those little dreams that i had, that even when i DID accomplish them, it went on un-noticed.

i didn't cheer for joy for being able to eat more than a bowl of rice.
i didn't laugh in triumph for being able to type fast on the keyboard without looking at it.
i didn't even blink an eye when i found that i could reach the switches after all..

sometimes it's sad how we don't appreciate the little things that go on.

to us it may be easy, but to others it may be a whole lot harder.

imagine this.

if someone were to take away your hands forever and ever

HAH! then things will obviously look a lot more different to you right?
suddenly typing isn't just typing anymore.
you'd cherish your moments being able to type and feel the keyboard before having to give your hands away.
you'd cherish your moments being able to do things by yourself before having to give them away.

but what about the ppl who have NEVER had the chance to experience that before?
what about the ppl who were born without hands or who were born deformed???
what about them what about them??

so stop complaining and appreciate what you have, darn it..
stop being such a whiner and wake up and smell the air.
you gotta love what surrounds you.
you gotta learn to love what surrounds you.
and then can you only be happy....

AH!!

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honestly, i don't really know the point of this post.

LOL. it's just the deep thinking sessions that i do all the time whenever i'm doing any household chores or daily routine stuff

just to let you know, my cramps in the leg DID go away, and i DID do my laundry ok, which is how i got to thinking whilst folding my clothing.

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the birds outside my window are still bugging me. i don't understand how something so small makes soooooo much noise when it's awake. but then i kinda feel like it's too quiet when they're not so chirpy anymore at night or when they're gone..

kinda reminds me of my frens back home. LOL.

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i'm thinknig of piercing my ears.

i mean, my ears ARE already pierced once on each side.
but i feel like piercing a few more, darn it.
i think it's more of impulse and influence but oooohhh..i've always wanted to pierce more holes!!
only that i never had the guts to do so and because of a few other restrains.

although hopefully i'll be brave enough to pierce my ears more when the time does come!!!

god help me god help meeee.....

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another freaking lame joke that i thought about...

i can't help thinking it okkkk, so don't simply blame ppl all kkk

they just randomly pop into my head for no apparent reason..

ok ok ..here goes..

i guess no one really noticed, but did you know that there have been cars that can fly ever since...forever?????
HAH! and i bet everyone was freaking blur for not noticing this, whereas i see them flying almost everyday.
they even have got unique honks ok...
the question is...which car CAN fly???

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answer: the malaysian cars, the pigeons.....

okk..so before you slam your head on the table or before you roll your eyes and say i don't even get it...

pigeon = pig-eon

eon = malaysian cars rite???

and don't pigeons fly???1?!??!?!

then therefore malaysian cars fly lah rite??????

i can't really explain the pig, but then i guess that's where PIGS FLYING come in too!1!!

so you see????EVEN BETTER

two jokes in one

pigs and cars that fly!!!

yes i know that's lame, but don't u think that's damn ingenious as well??!?!?!?!?
could you have come up with it???no rite no rite???
wAHHAHAHAHAH!!!

lah babi..i need to think about more useful things..
bengang betul...

shiat

babi.

i was reading frens' blogs and now my leg is cramped and i can't move.

i need to do laundry!! HELP!

you know you've..

you know you've grown when you look at the little kids around you and can't help but go *tsk tsk* and somehow feel that you have more authority over them than they you.

you know you've had it bad when you think about it, you dream about it and you curse whoever who has it..

you know you're ancient when you look at kids nowadays, and instead of talking about barbie dolls and playing masak-masak, they're talking about fashion, wishing for better handphones than the ones they have now and talking about boyfriends.

you know you have it when ppl start complimenting you on it.

you know you need to lose weight when the ppl around you (AHEM!!) start calling you pig and it catches on and almost everyone calls you pig now.. and not only is it pig, but it was piglet and then sometimes it's piggy

and since i'm on the topic...

you know you're a pig when ppl don't call you by name anymore and they refer to you as "the pig" in third person's view instead of she or her.

you know you're a pig when you answer to those who call you pig.

you know you're a pig when ppl tell the officials or those in charge that you're a pig in all hopes of seriousness.

you know you're a pig when you yourself start liking the name pig...

-_-"

may the force of the pigs prevail, and may the ppl bow to our power....

we pigs, shall take over the world one day, and doom you ppl to be our slaves...

*thunder lightning*

MUAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAA(evil laughter)

p/s: we(pigs) do fly ok..how else do you think i came to aussie??
p/s/s: not so sure bout the orgasm part though. ppl say it lasts for hours...i wonderr....

OOoOoooo

i'm back from the weekend holiday!!! YAY!!

had a blast in the city!!

and i don't really know how i missed this...

but i bought a BIKINI!!!!!!
not during the weekend...but a few days before the holiday started. :D

bought it from roxy at chadstone and costed me such a bomb. argh..

and then when i went down to the city..there was this whole shop mainly for swimsuits, called seafolly, that was on sale!! 40% somemore!! why does this always happen to me..

when i bought my ipod, 2 months later the price drops.

now this...

we were all supposed to go to the beach (that's why i bought the swimsuit in the first place. i didn't have mine with me) but then lately the weather has been more winter-like than spring-like..so we cancelled the "plan".

but then today when i woke up...

BRIGHT AND SUNNY!!

shit man..what is this..

LOL. that's melbourne weather for you! like when i was in the city, it rained for approx 2 minutes, and then the very next moment, it starts shining brightly again.
tried looking out for a rainbow, but couldn't find any :(

anyhowwww

i'm so glad the exams and assignments are over!!!! *phew*
i'm gonna have to use this holiday to catch up on anatomy and neurological systems. sigh...how boring is that??
but then again..i do always have a habit of talking more than acting...
so i doubt i'd be able to study, but hah! at least i did think of it, as compared to not thinking of it at alllll..

i have SUCHH a way of comforting myself.

i can't fit into my clothing anymore. why? oh, coz the dryer shrunk it.
i wake up late for a lecture. hmmm..but nvm, not like i can concentrate in it anyway.

i need to go through some major changes.

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my parents are going to U.K. and scotland!!!!

WITHOUT ME!!!!!!!!!!!!

AHHHHHH!!!

*speaking to mom on the phone. prolly last week*

mom: oh, btw, daddy and i are goin to uk ya. then after that we're flying to scotland to find onn suk.
sw: WHAT??? WHEN????
mom: oh..somewhere in october. not really sure yet. i'll either be flying there with daddy or with aunty
sw: WHAT????? THEN ME??? I THOUGHT THE PLAN WAS TO WAIT FOR Me TO COME BACK IN DECEMBER THEN ALL FLY TOGETHER????
mom: yea, but then daddy is goin to uk anyway in october, so we decided to follow him then. anyway you've spent a lot already this year. you spent a year holiday in aussie ok...somemore want to go to uk??? wahhh..good life ar you..
sw: but ...but.... then justin (6-year old brother) how??
mom: justin??he's coming with us lahh..
sw: wahh..so lucky..mm..is kor kor (big bro) going??
mom: no la..kor kor will be at home. he has to work..
sw: ahhhhhhhh....*sniggers*

so there you have it.
my parents and lil bro are goin on a holiday. without me.
this is UNHEARD OF!!!
i always go everywhere with them....
ahhhh...but fine fine.
i shouldn't be a priss and make them wait for me.
hope they have loads of fun though and maybe they'll remember to get me something nice...*hint hint*

hehehhehe
such a greedy daughter. *tsk tsk*

and somehow i found comfort in my big bro not going because of work.

how horrible can i be???

*monologue*
ok ok. lets start anatomy now.

oh, after i watch 'austin powers: international man' of mystery first!!!

ok ok . lets watch. but check the post box first!!

ok ok . go go go !!!

uhm??

i've had a hundred readers in 4 days...

and i didn't even update..

uhh....why ah??

leave la msges or comments or something so that i know who's been here????

don't simply come come and say nothing wat..

nyahahahhaha..next time no ang pau from me then how??

cannot say anything ok???

EHEHHEHEHHEHEHEHEHHE!!!*snort snort*

how i spent my weekend (......sounds so primary-ish...)

BWAHHAHHA!!!

i'm actually blogging from a whole different place right now!!(oh god how lame is this...)

oh well..

i've been staying over at tzemeng's place since friday (4 days ago) and i've been having a blast!!!!!
hahaha..on the 2nd day when i woke up, i was served breakfast and toast and tea made from scratch by tan tzemeng!!!

omgosh..talk about good service!!

but then the days after that, i made it myself larrr...

but still...not bad rite when it comes to hosting..hm hm

anyhow, the second time i made toast, i set off the fire alarm.
babi..
i got freaking freaked out coz i thought maybe the fire brigade would have been alerted and maybe they'll be on their way here right at that moment and it was 3 am ++!!

then there's that whole thing about paying the fines for false alarms and ladida..but they didn't come anyway...so i didn't have to worry.

my whole weekend was pretty much about walking around doing aimless things and shopping and making tea..prolly made about 15 cups of tea in total..
i even made mash potato in the middle of the night on saturday, and it turned out yummmyyy okkkk...
saw john and denny coincidentally at nando's and then had a lil chat with them..
it's been long since i saw denny but he still looks the same!!! hehhe (but anyway happy birthdya denny!!)

and oooohhhh

there was a calvin klein sale!!!!! everything was pretty cheap compared to the usual price, about AUSD 19, 39, 49, 59 for a top and more for pants!!
so if you see me walking around with a calvin klein garment on me.....

IT'S REAL OK!!! not from pasar malam.....hehheheh

i kinda miss the halls......

i'd post pictures up, but tzemeng uploaded the pics onto the other comp so i can't do much.....

but anyhow, i'm goin back in awhile so yay?!

p/s: a joke i heard over the weekend... why are there more females than males on sesame street??

answer: because there's a big bird.... -_-"

lame.but yet hillarious......

YAY! i'm almost done!!

my assignment is 90% complete thank god!!

geeeeee..i can't wait for me to complete it by 100% and then submit it in on friday, then here come the holidays!!!

but i've got another mini-assignment/research thing due on fri morning as well.

oh well, no use complaining. done soo much of it already. LOL

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anyone ever heard jason wade's you belong to me? it's a soundtrack from shrek. go listen to it. very very touching. i love love love that song. listen to it. NOW!!!

i can't stop listening to it.

must have listened to it for about 80 times already, and i just discovered it this afternoon!!

and it doesn't help that jason wade's actually pretty cute, with a drop dead gorgeous voice. i can just fall in love with his voice alone. *fans self**fans self*

add this to my list of guy criterias.

guys with hot juicy deep hoarse voices that comes naturally and is not put on.

sigh sigh sigh

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somehow, i'm not really looking forward to the holidays. coz when they end, it means i'll only have about 3 weeks left in monash uni clayton.

..

just sayting that alone has already brought tears to my eyes.

i have grown to love and cherish this place exactly like home.
it may be because of the independence that i get,
it may be because of the freedom that i get.

but it definitely is because of the friends that i have made here in australia.



friends that cannot be found anywhere else..
it is only because of them that i stopped feeling homesick..
it is only because of them that i enjoyed life here in aussie.



it's so hard having to go back to malaysia and starting all over again..
it's so hard having to find friends that i can trust as much as these..
it's so hard having to find friends that i can really really rely on..
i've found them, and yet we still have to part.



words cannot describe what i feel..
words cannot show what i have inside..
words cannot explain why they mean so much to me..
words cannot explain the sadness i feel,
the sadness i feel long before i'm even gone.



the things that we've gone through, the ups and downs, shows how much time means.
when we were at the lowest, time was wasted for the most ridiculous reasons.
even when i said i didn't care, i still did in more ways than one.
but only because of that, do i realize how much you all mean to me.
only now do i realize why things happen for a reason. a reason like no other.



acquaintances are of no meaning to me, for acquaintances i know none.
if i speak to you, you are my friend.
if i say hi, you are my friend.
only when i look at you with query, then you are a friend-to-be.
and even if i never looked at you, at least i passed you.
even so, you are more than an acquaintance to me.



your company has always been great..
no matter how little you said..
no matter how much i said.
words more than hi and bye were exchanged.
that alone is more than enough for me to call you my friend.



the stupid things we did..
the adventures we went through together..
they all mean a lot to me,
and will be embedded in me til time prevents me from so.



our nights out..
our laughter..
our movies..
they each make me feel sadder that i have to leave so soon.
i could never stop thinking of what i'd be doing exactly one year from then..
i could not imagine any one of you being more than a few steps away from me like you are now..



so used am i to seeing all of you each day
not seeing any one of you for longer than a day makes my heart uneasy
and only a call or a knock on the door would make it go away
and then i thought..
if one day is long enough....
what would one week, one month, one sem be??



the things we talked about
the things we gossiped about
we can't do that anymore when i'm gone
i won't be updated as instantly as my extension will belong to somebody else
i won't be informed as detailed-y as i'm far away, and it costs more than energy to speak to me.
only now do i realize the value of the internet.
but then again, internet prices are high at the halls.
and msn messenger or skype doesn't just do it.
there will be a difference,
and i will be able to feel it.



i know the day will come,
where we won't be as close as we are now.
where when we come together, all we can refer to was the past.
where when we come together, all i can wish for was how i never left aussie in the first place.
but life goes on. shit happens.
but i will always remember the time where we were in everything together.
where even the thought of you being there next to me made me happy in some ways.
even when you said nothing.
even when you didn't smile.
your presence was all that mattered.



probably a year from now,
i'll be looking at the pictures smiling,
remembering those moments,
remembering those times.

it's not that i haven't been through this before,
it's not that i never got up in the end

it's just that it's a lot harder for me to go through with it this time round.
it's just that i've really gotten to love them a whole lot more through out the year.
it's just that they may be the bestest of friends that i may ever come to know, and even so, chance doesn't permit me to pursue this route.

but i guess i have to be thankful that i found them in the first place,
that i had a chance to feel this way,
that i had a chance to shed my tears for a valid reason that no one would consider unreasonable.

i'm glad i got to know the ppl that i know now.
i'm glad i found you all.
i'm glad i came to aussie.
i'm glad for living in richo.

i'm glad for all the things we've been through together.

but should the time come for me to leave,
remember one thing.
i will always remember you, and i will always care.
history plays a big part in my life, and you were a part of it.
that's what matters.
that's what is important.

i will remember you....

- su wen, ho -
- 4.10 am, 21 september 2006 -
- 6E3, Richardson Hall, Monash Residential Services -
- clayton, vic, australia -

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i feel like i'm dead.
emotionally welled up.
i need to go to bed.

lameness at its best

while bathing just now, i thought of the lamest lamest thing ever.

lets say there's an indian girl named gaya, short for gayathiri.

i'm not referring to any gaya , i'm just referring to gaya-s in general.

so say if a girl were named gaya, THE best guy to marry her, would be someone named mutu (short for mutusamy).

ok?

so you have a wife named gaya, and a husband named mutu.

gaya mutu.

then it would make perfect sense if the child were to be named keunggulan.

RITE RITE???

gaya mutu keunggulan.

a whole family!! not bad rite???

and if you're damn blur and you're goin huh??

then i guess you never really watched national tv when u were young.

dunhill or something was popular for the tagline, gaya mutu keunggulan.
maybe that's where they got the idea from.
from a wife named gaya, a husband named mutu, and the child....keunggulan.

-_-"

why i'm not tech savvy sometimes..

i cannot get how windows live works.

sigh.. what with the pending requests?then when i try filling it up, it's actually creating a space or a blog of your own??? like multiply i suppose..

but i DONT WANNA do that!!!

can't i freaking fill it in without the spaces like thing???

i've already got... 4 blogs!!! and only regularly update one of them..then if u give me another one..then how??????

AHHHH

crisis i tell you crisis.

how i hate assignments......

argh. assignments are always such a prick in the balloon.

i hate doing assignments!! having to research heaps on the topic, and then having to type it all out within the word limit, then having to cite and doing bibliographies....ARGH ARGH ARGHHHHHH

you'd think i'd be used to it by now considering the amount of assignments we got last year in SAM. but nooooooooooo...assignments are always assignments no matter how many times you do it. bummer.

making things worse, i grew 3 new pimples in the past few days.

darn it........

i think i'm pms-ing.

ooOoOoooOOO

arsenal 1 - man u 0

not that i really care..but dayumn

i STILL find soccer boring.

but injuries are fun!!! ^ ^

what a babi day...

i love waking up late on weekends, and then regretting that i shoulda woken up earlier so that at least i'd have more time to do certain things.....

oh well..

richo ball was on thursday!! wheee...such a blast! although i didn't really fancy the band which played jazz all nite. i tried dancing to the music, worked out for awhile, but got bored eventually. barrhh....no jazz when suwen's around next time, eh???

ooooooooo...scandalous picture!!!! damn naked ok...NYARHAHAHAHAHAHHA!!! ;P

i.....

want.....

a.......

BIKINI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

:S

although i don't swim that often,
although i haven't YET been to the beach,
although i've got a huge number of swimming suits,

I WANT A BIKINI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i WANT I WANT I WANT!!!!!!

gotta start saving up for it.

hopefully my mom won't kill me when she finds out that i'm about to purchase a bikini.

uh-oh. (hopefully my mom doesn't read my blog. uh..hey mom??????? :D)

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chocolate chocolate chocolates!!!!

i've been eating way loads of chocolate lately. a lot more than what i usually eat. and i'm supposed to be on a diet, konon. babi betul...

i can't stop eating my chocolate cake and i can't stop drinking my chocolate milk.
all my cookies are chocolate chip flavoured, and i'm loaded with snickers and what-nots (chocolate related) in my room. even my bloody health bar has chocolate in it. geram...

looks like i'll be putting on the weight that i lost since goin back to malaysia in july.
and i can tell that i lost weight, mainly because the WEIGHING MACHINE FREAKING SAYS SO!!!

but now i can tell that i'm regaining weight because the underwear says so...... :(

bahhhhhh...

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btw, chiyao..i'm not doin your tag. way wayyyyyyyyy toooooo personal....
why u trying to trap me now??? :(

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i haven't been reading anybody's blogs lately.
the only 3 blogs that i read daily/every two days are kenny sia's, kinkybluefairy's and xiaxue's.

i'm just too bummed to go scheming through every single blog like what i used to do back in the old days. (sounds like i'm freaking old already...) heck, i only visit my frens' blogs when someone says:

~hey, go read my blog.~
~hey, i wrote about you. go read my blog.~
~hey, there's this cute guy on my blog. go see my blog.~
~hey, i wrote something funny. go read my blog.~

bejabbers.
i know it's damn babi, but i'm sorry yeaa...i'll try to read your blogs more often.

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i'm thinking of highlighting my fringe blue.

ooOOoOooOoOoooOOOo

ya rite la ooooo ooooooo..

i've been wanting to highlight my fringe for ages now, only that a) i never had the guts to do it, until now...... b) my mom would kill me......

but blue highlights are so coool!! or purple!! or violet!!!!

but then again, maybe my patients will think that i'm too...WILD...to be a doctor when i come to interview them next year over in malaysia.

that's what i hate

TYPICAL MALAYSIANS judging and assuming things about ppl all the time.

ok ok. here's the part where if you're malaysian and you're typical, you're better off not reading the parts after this.

and don't say i didn't warn you, because (Again) if you're malaysian and typical you might get offended by the things that i say. it's not that i hate you and want to kill you. i just want to bloody shake some sense into you and then leave the decision at your disposal.

by law, NO ONE, can sue me for my musings and my views mainly because i warned you of it first. so THERE!! you either go away now, or read and shaddup...

i shall write in tiny fonts just because i WANT to. HMPH!!

do you or do you not agree with me?

malaysians judge and assume things about ppl all the time. it's fine to judge, coz hey, everyone judges. but it's NEVER fine to assume.

you see a sexy lady walking down the street in a boob tube and short shorts.
i bet you, half the ppl would think that she's a slut and assume so.
so yes, she IS dressed on the lesser side, but it doesn't make her any less respectable than say, princess diana.

for all you know, she may be the one doing all the charity while you're the one just randomly pointing and assuming things.

it's fine if she wants to dress like so. i mean, what does that have to do with YOU?? it's not like you're her mother or anything right..
she just has a different sense of fashion, so let her be and don't simply say things larh babi.
it's not like she's killing someone with her body or she's doing something really bad with it. it's just that she's showing off more skin than the normal person would just because she loves flaunting her body, and then that's when everybody starts having a problem. so fine, she may have a higher chance of getting raped as compared to other ppl around her, but if that's the risk SHE''S willing to take, who the hell are you to start warning her and blabbering about it??

and honestly, every woman has an equal chance of being raped. doesn't matter what the hell you're wearing.
if you're in the wrong place at the wrong time, then that's it. which brings on another topic of how i HATE HATE HATE RAPISTS and PPL WHO DAMN GILA SEX. babi assholes. simply rape ppl. like no freaking life. go and die and rot in hell la buggers. HMPH HMPH HMPH!!!

judging does not all have to do with clothes. it's very very physical.

example: if i have a pierced eyebrow and a pierced lip, i BET you, half the ppl in malaysia would go..

*tsk tsk tsk..like THAT oso can become med student arh??? tsk tsk tsk*

bangang babi.

it's the same thing as looking at a handicapped person and thinking that they must really lead a sad life for they need help in everything that they do. for all you know, they're most probably as independent as every other person around, and heck, maybe even more independent than you..

just because someone has an altered look, it doesn't make them any less of any other decent person. it doesn't prove that you're wild. it doesn't prove that you're inhumane. it doesn't prove that you're dumb.

i may just like having holes in my face, and if i think i look cool with it, so what??? i like piercings. so what??
i cannot like piercings and helping ppl get better at the same time is it?
just because i like treating ppl and getting them better, i cannot indulge in my other favourite things izzit??
just because i pierce at weird places, it doesn't mean i'm gonna kill somebody or i'm taking drugs or i've commited a crime before..??
just because i'm brave enough to do things that you would never do doesn't mean that you can judge me, when in fact you'd love to be in my place???

why like this? why why why??

can't we just look and say, wow.. how cool??

or even if you don't find it cool, just DON't say that you don't find it cool and stop at that point. you don't have to go further..

just because one has an altered sense of "physicality" (literally, in terms of a book's cover) and is not of the expected image, one does not have to be looked at and interpreted in any other way.

remember how we always say that it's inner beauty that counts??

this is when inner beauty really comes into play and at it's maximum level. give them a chance to really prove who they are. give yourself a chance to know who they really and truly are.

Think about it..

but then again, if you're malaysian and typical, you wouldn't give a damn about what ppl think and then continue on being your stubborn usual self, believing in your self-righteous cause.

that's where the problem began in the first place. sigh...

malaysia boleh!(no sarcasm intended)

literally...

i can fly....

i love BIRTHDAYS!!!!!!!

i love love love BIRTHDAYS!!!!!!i don't even care if it's my birthday or not, but i still LOVEE BIRTHDAYSSSSS!!!!!

i love birthdays for they mean that there will be birthday cakes and food!!
i love birthdays for they mean that there will be a celebration in occassion of his/her birthday
i love birthdays for they mean that there will be people with happy faces!
i love birthdays for they mean that there will be candles and blowing them out is such fun!!! (although it's not your birthday, you might get the chance of being able to blow them out!)
i love birthdays for they mean that at least two ppl (me and birthday person) will be made happy(again, although it's NOT my birthday)
i love birthdays because they create a feeling of being special and even the most dullest person will be even more special on that day.
i love birthdays because birthdays are meant to be loved.

happy birthday indar!! may your hair grow asap and may you have a wonderful semester ahead, filled with action and prosperity. uh huyk uh hyuk

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anatomy is killing me. not that i'm doing much about it, but it's still killing me. maybe that's why it's killing me. because i'm doing nothing about it. ahhh..the irony :P

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lady in the water is not bad weh.
although i prefer m. night shyamalan's previous movies.
he plays quite a role in this movie, which is different from the rest because he's usually one of the kehlehfehs (extras).

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i'm bored.
bleuargh.

what a girl wants..

yay!!!

i've only got a 2 hour tutorial today!!
starts at 10, finishes at 12..
but we finished at 10.56 am on the dot!!!
yay yay yay yay

bbwahahha..but back to business..

as a hired advertising agent for my dear dear friend, mr. jason ban, i'd like to hereby state..

that you DAMNNN tak laku wehh...

the highest bid so far, is AUSD 0.75, and even that is BELOW the starting price of the bid!!
*faints*

it's either i totally fail as an advertising agent, or jason ban isn't handsome enough for you.

don't la so ego...

jason ban is a very nice man ok...c'mon c'mon!!!bid bid bid!!!!!

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we had a pretty interesting discussion yesterday during the ethics tutorial.

what is life?
how do you define a person?
when does the united form of both the sperm and the ovum deserve it's classification as a person?
so on so on.....

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the stupid birds are still chirping like donkeys. don't know how i'm gonna stand them weh.
will prolly go psycho by the end of the year.

anyhow, i went jogging yesterday!!! wheeeeee
ok lah..fine.
more of like i jogged less than one third of the journey and walked the rest back.
and directly after i had a large chocolate milkshake and a toasted foccacia.

i was really hungry ok!
i hadn't had anything to eat that whole day except for one char siew pau (bbq pork bun).
so obviously i was starving.............

but the point is, i've never really noticed how un-athletic i am.
i mean, i knew i was unatletic. but i never knew i was THIS unathletic.
i couldn't even jog for more than half an hour without stopping for breath and my lungs felt as if they were starting to swell.
so there's not much i can say, eh?

i need to go for training.

anybody athletic enough to train me or train with me???

ring me.

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COINCIDENTALLY (don't simply say say), someone today asked me:

~ what is it that i want in a guy?? ~

HAHAHHA!!! this is damn tricky, eh?
mainly because i came up with the conclusion yesterday that the type of guys that i want are guys that are really really rare, and even if they do exist, they've already got girlfriends of their own. so that's too bad really. but it's not like i'm desperate or anything, heck i enjoy being single!!! :P

most guys are assholes, was the reply. interesting really..LOL

i want guys that are/can/will:

1) nice to me, and sensitive to my feelings.
2) treat not only me, but my friends and family with respect. to socialize with them as if they were his friends/family too.
3) understanding, and not insisting on his ways alone.
4) to not always be agreeable with me. a challenging fight is sometimes appealing or maybe even an intellectual argument. it's nice if he can stand up for himself.
5) hohoho...a nice bodayyyyyyy...it doesn't have to be necessarily buff, but as long as it's not too flabby. beer belly cannot ok!!!
6) nice eyes, nice hair, nice smile. (3 most important things i see physically in a person)
7) taller than me
8) plays the guitar. (i find it a bit weird if my other half were to play the piano as well, but i wouldn't mind..i guessss... :P)
9) sings
10) shuts up when the time is right
11) tolerant to abusiveness (from me, both physically and orally)
12) has a kind and honest soul. as in really really...
13) understands my needs and my ways
14) goes clubbing not to drink, but to dance!!
15) non-smoker
16) non-drugger
17) and who pampers me like HELLLLL!!!!!!!!

BWAHHAHAAHAAHAAHAH

ok.

i know i'm goin to die a spinster.

so long and farewell....

AUCTION!!! AUCTION!!!

meet jason ban.

20 years old. average height. adorable character.
good taste in music. good taste in jokes.
believes in the power of nature. believes in faith.
hillarious. good-tempered.non-temperamental.

~up for bidding~
starting price: AUSD 1.00

going like hot cakes!!!!~
don't waste time ok.
faster bid bid bid!!!

if you find yourself staring at his picture for more than 2 seconds, BID!
if you find yourself drooling at his picture, BID!
if you find yourself dreaming about him, BID!

BID BID BID!!

don't be so lazy just reading this post without saying anything.
BID!!!

hey ladies and ppl of the land,
we all know who's your man,
who's my man who's my man?
it's jason ban it's jason ban!!

who's the dude with the bright white smile?
the dude with the look that drives you wild
who's the dude that you want to keep?
it's jason ban so bid and leap!!

auction runs up to two weeks.
you can drop a msg, leave a comment, message me on msn, or if you're desperate enough, gimme a ring.

~ i am now an advertising agent. ping me if you need advertising. ~

harrumph

i've got a xanga site..

*click here*

go look go look.

i just put up the chatbox today!! yipppeee...

luv.

hmmm

i was in lecture today and i was rather bored coz the lecture was about something that we've already learnt previously. so obviously my mind wondered off...

then after awhile..i realized.
the few things i always do in most of the lectures are:

1) random doodles/drawings on the lecture notes. however, i always draw the same ol things.
a flower in a pot, a question mark in a box, my name, a crown, clouds, and birds.

2) i look around the lecture hall trying to spot ppl who are asleep. hahhahhaa...whenever i spot anyone, i just can never stop laughing or looking. i saw a fren of a fren sleeping away in the lecture theatre, his mouth half open and his head jerking back all the time. hilarious..

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i've lost weight!!!!!!!!!!! YAY!!!!!!!

well, not much, but at least i've lost some!!!
although kononnya i don't look as pink as i was before.

seems like before this i was fat and pink (think pig). and now i'm less fat, and less pink.

ohhhh boy..LOL

the other day, my friend was in my room and i was showing her some of my pictures.
secondary school pictures, coll pics, and present pics.

then she pointed at my sec school pic and said

~ i can imagine this girl (the old pic of me) doing medicine. but now when i look at you, i cannot imagine at all. ~

!!!!!!!!!!!

i have no idea if that was a compliment or not. but all's well, and yes, i shall take that as a compliment.

i know i've said this like a gazillion times, but i've "changed" a lot over the past years, in terms of physical appearances.

i used to be the girl with short-boy-cut hair with oval-ish glasses and a nerdy vibe.



then i became the girl with shoulder length hair (nvr longer than that), still with the glasses, and still with the nerdy vibe although a lot less.

and THEN (this is where the major changes happened, according to some), i became the girl with the longer-than-shoulder length hair and whom wore contact lenses in public.
apparently, i lost weight also and i grew a lot slimmer *so proud so proud :P*
my face structure also changed, although i don't see where and how.



ppl couldn't recognize me, and were always taken aback whenever they saw me.
they'd usually go, "!!!!!!! su wen!!! omg!! you look so different!!! couldn't recognize you!! leng lui adi wor...where're your glasses????"

that was last year. i became a whole lot more conscious about my looks as compared to the previous years before.

long long before tcsj, i never gave two shits about what i looked like. all i did was aim, whack and go. fashion was incomprehensible to me.

and then in uni year(2006), i changed even more dramatically.

i started wearing makeup (only on certain occassions, but a lot more often than any other time in my life).

i became picky about the clothes that i wear to places other than uni. (i can never be bothered about what i look like going to uni mainly because i wake up just in time for class, and there's no time to really get dressed up. heck, i go to uni in glasses!!)

i can never get enough of shopping and i always want more. that's where the sense of control comes in because $$$$ is never enough.

the clothes that i like now are a lot more girlish and frillish than what i'd usually wear.

iused to wear t-shirts and snuff and snort at blouses that aren't meant for boyish ppl like me... i hated blouses. i hated skirts. i hated heels.

but that's all gone now. i guess that was just a phase of life.

heck, maybe THIS is a phase of life.

blahhh...who knows who knows

oh..and shaddup about the pictures ok.

:P

because there're just too many words on my blog..

and not enough pictures to be seen...

more pics later on

*yawn*

bored...

p/s: lets all give a moment of peace to steve irwin, the crocodile hunter. may he rest in peace..

this is a....

BIG ASS PHOTO OF THOMAS!!!

only because he says that he needs special mentions in my blog......

HAHAAAA thomassss!!!!!!! u better not be regretting okkk

p/s: i think i'm getting a lil bit of the aussie accent. i accidentally blurted out aussie slang without meaning to...

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uh-oh...

krispy kremes!

exams are over!! *phew*

big big relief.

can't really say that it went well though.
you know the feeling of how you know your facts, but it just doesn't seem of any use to you??
and then you have anatomy....
omg.
honestly, anatomy isn't as bad as pharmacology!
the names of drugs to remember are enough to kill you...
but what's done is done. i can only complain so much, with little difference!!!

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i've been lying under the stars for quite a little bit lately.
fine, fine, maybe my little bit means twice, two nights in a row, but who's counting??
i get really really happy when i'm underneath the stars, and i honestly have no idea why.

maybe it's because it's a lot more peaceful just lying on the grass and staring into space while you're having bonding-talks with your friends.

or maybe it's because everyone is just lying down with you and they've got nothing else to concentrate on. that way everyone is just focused on everyone and things can be said a whole lot better and easier.

or maybe it's because i'm the asshole who has got nothing else to do and wants to lie under the stars, and then proceeds to drag her screaming friends along and forces them to watch the stars with her as well.
then they so layan and then teman me underneath the stars...

the things i make my friends do.....

and i got bitten by bugs last night while lying on the mount outside roberts' hall. it's a lil bit swollen now otherwise it's no big a deal. but it itched like hell, and i hate the itchy feeling. so petty larh sometimes...

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anyhow, i went to krispy kremes alllllll da way in zone 3 today. LOL!
krispy kremes are basically doughnuts that rock you out of this world. yummyy
went there with alya and got a lil detour along the way, but nevertheless we reached the place in the end, and that's the point!!
bought 14 freaking boxes of doughnut, a dozen in each box, 3 for me and alya, and the rest for frens....

that makes 168 doughnuts all in all.

i've never seen/bought/ate so many doughnuts in my life...
i don't even like doughnuts......

but these are krispy kremes, and they just ain't no normal doughnut yo!
but now i'm quite sick of it...blueh..i don't know what i'm goin to do with the rest of them.

i ate 6 doughnuts already in less than 12 hours and i can feel the fat piling up.
then chitra says it takes 9000 steps to kill off that doughnut in your body.
blahhhhhhhh

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you know winter is over when:

1) you stop wearing your jacket when u leave the room
2) you don't curl up in your bed anymore with the blanket over you
3) you switch off your heater for the first time in 5 months.....

i miss winter....
:(

it may be weird but i like the cold. always have, always will. as long as it doesn't get too cold though...

but spring is nice i suppose, seeing the flowers bloom and the grass turn green....

but it rains nowadays!!!!!!!!!! and the night sky has got clouds in it........
i can't find the stars i used to see a few months back.

it's such a pity i didn't look at the stars more often when it was still winter and the clouds were away on holiday.

it's sad when you realize that you've never treasured the things that surround you and when you finally do, it's already gone.

i miss the stars......