warh!

came to uni a tad bit early, so logged on to facebook, and decided to check my horoscopes online. which is definitely out of the ordinary.
don't usually read my horoscopes. gah!
but check out what it said..

Cancer: You've been trying hard to be nice to someone, but let's face it - you just don't like them. It's ok - you don't have to be best friends with everyone.

gah!

ok.
so today is not going to be a good day.
why leh?
because my horoscope says that i don't have to be nice to everyone lorh!!

so if you tick me off today, today's the day where i'm not going to bother about your feelings or any repercussions whatsoever.
so everybody...
BEWARE!!!

of today only lah..
hoho

if you see me being a promoter of a club in uni anytime this week, say hi!!!

of movies and songs

i think it's damn lebih how movies these days all begin with the word THE followed by a noun.

example:

the notebook
the lakehouse
the illusionist
the jacket
the secret window
the guardian
the good shepard
the fountain
the reaping
the guardian
the eye

and whatever lahhh

and you know sometimes, you try and tell what sort of movie it is just by interpreting it's title?

for example like...

the exorcist (see??? another "the-noun")

it says exorcist.
so you know it involves spirits and things and sorts like that..so you know it's a horror movie.

titanic.
it's a name of a ship, so you know it's about a ship. what goes on in that ship, who falls in love with who, who sleeps with who is all vague. but whatever. it's about a ship. so, it might be a thriller (maybe the ship turned out to be some military ship in disguise??) it might involve romance (which is what it's all about obviously). horror?hard to say..but chances are super duper low..

lord of the rings.
you know it involves lords. it involves rings. so i'd say prolly thriller. possibly horror as well, you know like some devil possessing the ring and taking over ppl and things like that.

but it irks me like hell when the title doesn't explain the theme of the movie!!! especially when they're really old movies or unheard of movies that you haven't seen a trailer or poster of it, that you just CAN'T tell what kind of movie it is!! and ppl like me who are damn bloody afraid of horror movies can't do anything about it!!!

for example..

'the notebook'.
what?
it's about a notebook.
ok.
so...what sort of notebook is it??
it's a possessed notebook?
or it's a possessing kinda notebook?
when i was in aussie and roaming the file sharing thinga majigie, i found this movie.
ok lah..so pardon the hulu person that i am, but i had never heard of it until i found it last year.
so i didn't bother watching it, because..i thought it was some horror movie. the title is just so vague, that it could be about ANYTHING!! ANYTHING AT ALL!!!!! thriller lah horror lah romance lahhhh..but i figured mostly horror.

which was why i didn't download it at all, until i asked my friend about it, and she told me that it was a damn touching movie and that i SHOULD watch it. also to add, that there's nothing to be afraid of.
-_-"

no kidding.
same goes with 'the jacket' and 'the lakehouse'

i mean, WHAT THE HELL RIGHT?!?!?

i thought the lakehouse was a movie about a family shifting in and finding dead ppl around or some shit like that.
who the hell knew it turned out to be a romance movie.
-_-"

and see??
the secret window.
you'd think it's some fantasy movie, with little children finding a secret window to their dreams (kinda like the story the secret garden) but nooooooooooo
it's about johnny depp and some horror shit. ( i wouldn't know. i didn't watch it. i DON'T watch horror movies)

the point is,
it doesn't SAY SO ANYWHERE THAT it's a horror movie in the title!!!!
what am i supposed to do?
and i already have this perception that all titles with the "the-noun' title format would be scary, that even when i scroll through the movie, it turns out looking scary.
see?
first impressions do count!

something like, amityville horror, dark water, ghostship, thirteen ghosts, SEEE??!!?!??! they alllll have some sort of clue that they are horror movies!!

but which part of "the eye" does it say that's it's horror?
and c'mon.
if the eye can be possessed...WHY NOT THE JACKET AND THE LAKEHOUSE AND THE NOTEBOOK AND THE GUARDIAN?? we have "the RING" what.
and the ring turned out to be a horror movie.
so how??

you watch the ring from the beginning thinking that it's about some sweet guy who works hard day and night just so he can buy a ring to pursue the one he loves who is very much in the arms of someone else, someone better and wealthier. then when you click play on the laptop/pc, suddenly you see this show about ppl watching tvs and so on so forth.
-_-"
it's fine if you've seen trailers and you know about it, but if you haven't!??!???!
DIE!

kesian ppl like me who get shitted out of their wits whilst watching horror flicks.
nvr have been one for scary movies.....

eekk..

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speaking about movies, TRANSFORMERS WAS AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!
the way they transformed...pwoar!!!
and pretty funny toooo!!

although...
i never could see why the hero and the love interest MUSTTT always find time to tell each other how they feel and how they appreciate one another at crucial moments!!

like, fire flying left right centre, could be killed at any bloody moment, damn kan cheong, damn exhillirating!!!!
then whole scene slows down and focuses on the guy and girl expressing their deeply burried emotions.
-_-"

the worst is when a guy is rushing out from a building where he's just planted a bomb.
so you see him running damn fast, then he tries and saves the girl and then while untying her rope-tied hands, they have time to kiss and meraba-raba.
WTH?!?!??!!

first i thought right. it's all good rushing, but you're wasting time doing the unnecessary??? ok lah, so fine, to some ppl it might be, but still!!

so sometimes the movies are damn kuah cheong(over/lebih) loh

and no worries.
none of the above are spoilers :P

just to note..

p: i've got something really important to tell you. but you must promise me you wouldn't get angry..ok?
sw: yeah..ok..
p: you sure or not..i've been meaning to tell you from last time..but now only i've decided i should tell you.
sw: ok. tell lah.
p: ............
...........
............
su wen...
my car....is actually a TRANSFORMER.
sw: -_-"
really arrrr?????? i'm actually a transformer osoo!!!!
p: hah?? really???? can you transform to be taller and thinner then????
sw: .....
p: and stay transformed??
sw: LMAO!!!
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ppl, you ALL should check this song out.

Plain White T's - Hey there, Delilah

it's like, my all time favourite song now.
it's deep, simple and nice.

especially when ppl like me can relate.
if you're in a long distance relationship or whatsoever, i recommend you download this song. it's like the song of your dreams.
the first time i heard it i cried.
and even when i listened somemore, i cried.
but no lah..lately i've been really emotional. i cried during transformers ok. so it's more of the hormones thing, so oh well.
AND LISTEN TO THE LYRICS!!
LISTEH TO THE LYRICS!!
THE LYRICS!!
THE LYRICS!!!!

and just in case you ppl don't like listening....

here are the lyrics

"Hey There Delilah"

Hey there Delilah
What's it like in New York City?
I'm a thousand miles away
But girl tonight you look so pretty
Yes you do
Times Square can't shine as bright as you
I swear it's true

Hey there Delilah
Don't you worry about the distance
I'm right there if you get lonely
Give this song another listen
Close your eyes
Listen to my voice it's my disguise
I'm by your side

Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
What you do to me

Hey there Delilah
I know times are getting hard
But just believe me girl
Someday I'll pay the bills with this guitar
We'll have it good
We'll have the life we knew we would
My word is good

Hey there Delilah
I've got so much left to say
If every simple song I wrote to you
Would take your breath away
I'd write it all
Even more in love with me you'd fall
We'd have it all

Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me

A thousand miles seems pretty far
But they've got planes and trains and cars
I'd walk to you if I had no other way
Our friends would all make fun of us
and we'll just laugh along because we know
That none of them have felt this way
Delilah I can promise you
That by the time we get through
The world will never ever be the same
And you're to blame

Hey there Delilah
You be good and don't you miss me
Two more years and you'll be done with school
And I'll be making history like I do
You'll know it's all because of you
We can do whatever we want to
Hey there Delilah here's to you
This ones for you

Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
What you do to me.

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the parts highlighted in yellow and green are my favourite parts. especially the yellow part.
totally watered my eyes out then..
geeeee

UPSET!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :(:(:(

it totally sucks to be a guy. why?

LMAO.
ok, this is not a sexist post aight, ppl?
instead, it's a post to respect the male gender for all the sacrifices that they've made or are expected to make thus far.

so wait lah. be patient, and continue reading.

it totally sucks to be a guy, because in every sense and every way, guys are surrounded by boundaries, where if they step over em', they're either pointed and laughed at and called gay, or just thought of as not man enough.

i give you a few examples ok?
but NOTE. i'm not trying to condemn ur species or put you down. it's just that i think i would never survive as a guy, having known and experienced that joys that i can have as a girl. obviously, you may think otherwise, but hey, i'm just stating my opinion, eh??? hehehe..so this is not in anyway, meant to offend or insult anyone. just remember that k??

a) FASHION-WISE
a normal guy (or expected to be normal), wears normal big baggy t-shirts or shirts and big baggy pants.
the t-shirts must be either collared, or round-neck.
if they have a damn hot body, then wearing a slightly tighter t-shirt is acceptable.
anything out of the ordinary, is considered gay.

fashionwise, guys who don't obey by the unwritten rule are considered faggots (other more polite ppl call them metrosexual).

to define the term faggot/metrosexual, ppl would say that they are guys who dare express themselves, and would not mind going out in any way to make themselves look good, by SHOWING that they care, instead of pretending that they don't.

for example, i'd say a metrosexual man would be someone who uses facial products, who uses branded clothing and who go out of their way in expressing themselves, with big prints or sorts on their t-shirts or with a weirder colour scheme, and are not afraid in following the latest fashion(which would include things like carrying big bags around on their shoulder).

a metrosexual man when asked, do you use anything on your face?
he would answer, why yes. i use SK II skin whitening range along with L'oreal's ............ so on so on (ok la, i admit. i don't know any of this facial products thingie, coz i myself don't use them, which explains the state of my face... -_-")

on the other hand, a guy who considers himself normal by the society's norm, would/might be using facial products, may/may not wear branded clothing which are either plain or with un-obvious prints or patterns, whom will never be seen caught with a big bag on his shoulders, and would only dare wear light pink t-shirts.

a "normal" man when asked, do you use anything on your face?
he would answer, no/sort-of. and he'll prolly change the topic, or say that he is using something temporarily or that it was something he found lying around the house, or his mom's or bla bla bla bla...

but u get what i mean.

v-necklines, not accepted by majority of the guys.
sleeveless, some say are gay, some say okay.
jeans, cannot be tight, must be hanging loosely to the waist.
ladidadida..
it's like, the total opposite of a fashion statement in the male world.

in the female world, women try to make fashion statements. wear the brightest colour, wear the biggest earrings, wear the shiniest necklace, etc etc
there're so many things to choose from, so many styles..girls try to stand out in crowds and look nice...seee????
it's pretty hard to be called boyish (fashion wise) if you're a girl, unless all you wear is a big t-shirt and big pants.

whereas in the male world, all everyone does it to lie low and play safe. they try NOT to make a fashion statement. they blend with majority.

TRUE?

don wear bright pink shirts!! after ppl stare and say i'm gay
don carry big bag!! after ppl stare and say i'm gay
don wear V-line!! after ppl stare and say i'm gay
-_-"

so boring rite?? when guys go shopping, there's not much to choose from. i mean, your style has pretty much been determined, and your colour range is limited along with the type of prints. so one tshirt doesn't differ much to another in a guy's wardrobe. as long as the criteria baggy and un-gay are fulfiled, TICK!! SAFE!!

doesn't it show you why most guys DON'T enjoy shopping? and why metrosexual ppl do??? and why females enjoy it too...

so unless you're metrosexual (which means that you're daring enough to venture away from the norm of the male species), it totally sucks to be a guy because you're bounded by the unwritten rule of what you SHOULD and SHOULDN'T wear, and can never enjoy the wondrous emotions of shopping.

p/s: ok, this is getting too long. i'm gonna break this post down into a few posts, i'll continue another day :P lazy rediiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii -_-"

YAY!

since monday, i bought 3 new tops!!!!YAY! gembiraaaaaaaaa!!!
i swear, the megasales are gonna make me broke!!
30% first item, 50% 2nd item.
SMART ALECS!
make me buy two items!!
they both have the same style, only different colours and patterns, but i love em!!
casual sorts.
actually, most of my tops are casual.
tank tops, t-shirts..things like that. seldom buy nice frilly blouses!! but i do occasionally go ga-ga over them, so we'll see!!
ehheheehhe

caught ocean's 13 on monday, which i thought wasn't too bad! pretty good i'd say. apparently the 2nd one is better and more complicated though :P
but brad pitt and george clooney damn style-can-die.

and i caught fantastic 4 2 today.
uh..
HAHAHA!!
some of the scenes are super lame and corny.
-_-"
why must every movie have a romantic storyline to it?
it's like a back-up plan incase the movie's main plot fails or wat?
like say, ok.

if it's a horror movie, aight.
we'll put in a pair of lovebirds who are horny for each other all the time, just in case the main "horror" isn't scary enough and incase you know, our plot doesn't work out. ?????!?!?!??!!

and especially when it's a superhero movie!!

geeeezzz

i mean, fine.
if you want to include a love story within the superhero one, fine fine fine.
but...i don't know!
it's just too damn corny for words, is what it is!!
there were parts of FF4 that i went..WHAT THE?????
hah

but overall..it's not quite a bad movie.
just be prepared to roll your eyes for a bit.
LOL.
and chris evans.
wow
damn blahdy good looking..

anyone watched NotAnother Teen Movie?
yeahh..
jake wyler? (the main male part/jock who sings amy's got a gun.. LMAO)
yeah
that's chris evans.
only he used to look a lot stumpier.

if you've never watched not another teen movie, go watch it!
i mean, it's dumb!
but it's one of my favourite teen movies of all time!!!

lame ass plot line, but hilarious to the core.

hahahahah

actually, i feel like watching it now.
so hah!
of, i go!!!!!!!!

huggiez!

the perfect solution..

the perfect solution, for when you are broke and need to eat to survive..

is to hang around carrefour, subang on sunday afternoons, coz i tell you, the AMOUNT OF FREE SAMPLES they give out, wahhhh
can eat sampai kenyang.

sausages la, milk la, yoghurt la, tea lah..walaoh

all you need to do is walk around in circles for about, 3-4 times and just pick on the samples along the way, confirm full redi.

need to go on a date for two ppl but don't have the cash?
simple, go to carrefour.
heh:P

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spent an hour an a half watching britain's got talent on youtube.
i think the video below is still the best out of all, damn cool yo.

crew 82 beatboxing to kanye west's gold digger, hans zimmerman's move it (from madagascar..i think it's hans zimmerman, can't remember), and one more song..
respect. worth checking out. wait for the whole thing to load, then watch.

i promise you, it's the best thing i've seen on youtube thus far.
CHECK IT OUT!!!!!!!!

channel E! rox my sox

haha
it's so weird that i'm choosing to blog instead of sleeping.
i laid on the bed with the lights off and an aching body, but the mind still seemed very much awake, hence this.
sigh.
i think it's my screwed up sleeping time.

today i was damn housewife-y.

in the morning i cleaned my room, vacuumed it, and mopped the whole house.
in the evening i taught justin math. i knew i was never the teacher type, further proven by justin ending up in tears.
after dinner, i did the dishes (ok..so i do it everyday, but i'm trying to prove a point, aight??!?!?!!!)
at night, i hand-washed and machined-was my load of clothing.

SAW OR NOTT!!
the only thing i was lacking was the cooking part, and i couldn't do that coz justin needed my service in passing on knowledge.
so wateva larh..

anyhow, i watched channel E! whilst doing the laundry (YES, i wash my clothes in front of the tv in a bucket) and i saw a THS (true hollywood stories) edtion on racheal ray.

for those who don't know (don't worry, i didn't either), she's like..this big time cooking chef person, kinda like the modern day martha steward. and she went on to have her own talk show and stuff, and basically she's damn successful lahhh

whilst watching the show, i couldn't help but feel that me and racheal ray have a lot in common, character-wise.

she's damn bising, perky and smiley all the time.

tell me, am i or am i not like that???

RIGHT RIGHT?!??!
so you tell me, am i wrong or not for thinking so?!?!?

and the show went on to talking about the millions of fans that she has and how she's become this great idol and icon for ppl worldwide, that even ppl like oprah were amazed by the likes of her.

and then obviously you have the nothing-better-to-do-egoistical-bitches-who-cannot-stand-to-see-other-ppl-being-happy-whilst-they-complain-on-their-asses-24/7 who try and ruin it for you.

yep.
no kidding.
a freak set up a website dedicated to hating racheal ray.
it's called racheal ray sucks or something like that.
geez..try thinking of a better name, will ya???!?!
and the worst thing is she acted all mighty and superior when E! interviewed her about the hate-website.
she seemed so proud of her done "job".
gawd.
it's like she has no life of her own, and just randomly picks on successful ppl to hate and to trash.
and her site gets 6000 hits per day!, and obviouly she gets money from advertising and being popular amongst the community, so tell me, who's being a parasite?!?!
you insult ppl, but you suck money of their fame and popularity.
PTUI!
sampah masyarakat.

and when asked,
WHY DO YOU HATE RACHEAL RAY?
"oh, i hate her whole perky factor and how she's always cheerful and what-not. it's obviously fake."

oh gawd period
ok, so she didn't say EXACTLY THAT, but it went along the lines of.
who the hell are ppl to judge if someone is PRETENDING to be happy and cheerful or not??
just because someone is happy all the time doesn't mean they're PRETENDING to be happy???!?!?!!
and bloody hell, even IF she's pretending to be happy, THAT'S HER JOB RITE?!!!
you can't possibly host a show or wtv being a total sad-case-pathetic-loser.
geez
jealouse, just say jealous.
sudah.

racheal ray was all, "it's ok if someone were to hate me, coz i can't please everybody, and if i were to try and do so, it'd be stupid."

respect.

you know, i can so totally relate to that.

lets reflect upon me. hehe (yes, you can stop reading now if you want to. it's gonna get long)
:P

i'm noisy.
i'm perky.
i'm cheerful.
i'm loud.

some ppl would say that's annoying, others would say it's comforting and happy-fying.

but you know, i'm ok with both, coz you can only love a person or totally hate them, and you only totally hate someone out of jealousy (if they've done NOTHING bad to you) or because you're a person who only knows hate.

but know one thing, i am sooooo not being pretentious.
i AM happy and i AM loud.

get my drift?

have always been, will always be.
furthermore,
i support myself when i say i'm not someone who's easily like-able.
most ppl would be annoyed at the first sight of me, because i'm always bouncing around and being noisy.
attention seeking some say.
but trust me when i say this, it is NOT attention that i seek.
ALL my life, i have been noisy and like that larh..and it just so happens that attention is passed my way for i AM like that.
i'm NOT like that because i want attention.
attention wants me because i AM like that.
see the difference??

but honestly, i don't mind the attention. :P:P:P
it's a lot easier to say things sometimes when you know ppl are listening, so attention nvr hurt anyone. haha!!

trust me, i have tried toning down a lot on the voice factor, and i HAVE.
i'm a lot softer than i used to be, but loud nevertheless.

ppl have always refered to me as the loud and noisy one.
and it's something i take pride in.

p constantly reminds me that it's not something that i should be proud of, but then again, why not?

better be known for being loud and noisy, than being the idiotic one.
better be known for being loud and noisy, than being the silent one.
better be known for being loud and noisy, outspoken and happy, than being someone who's not known at all.
better be known and hated, than be not known at all.

think about it.

ppl also usually link me and happiness together for i seem to project an aura of joy and carefree-ness almost all the time, that even when i'm silent for a moment, ppl think there's something wrong with me.

but that's not the point.

what i'm trying to say is, that no matter how perfect you are one way or the other, someone out there is bound to want you down, whether you like it or not.

not everyone is liked by everyone.
there WILL be haters and evil ppl around, but so what??
WHY let them get to you when you're perfectly comfortable with the way you are and are unperturbed by them??

once when i was down and had this whole, self-conflicting issue, a very trustable friend of mine whose opinion EVERYONE valued said something that made me sit up.

"why are you so disturbed? they're just jealous of you. take pride in that."

and it made me think twice.
so what if they ARE or AREN'T jealous?
to hell with them and let them be lah!!

also, think about it.
ppl usually want you out of their way only when they think you're competition to them.
like in survivor.
you get the best ones out, keep the good ones coz you need them to survive, and the soft ones coz they'll be easier to defeat.

see my point?

it shows you how INTIMIDATED they are by you, and it's not something you can help.

simply...
the losers are the ones who are intimidated and take action AGAINST you.
the winners are the ones who change themselves, or take action within them selves to parallel you.

sure, it seems like an arrogant way, but it's ways like these that shows you who your friends really are.

take for example, the popular cheerleader (BBB) and the unpopular best friend (AAA)

if AAA were a good friend, she'd support BBB (provided BBB is also a nice person and not a totally biatch larh), and vice versa. AAA would be proud for BBB and ladidadida

but if AAA were just some lame ass intimidated freak, she'd back out on BBB and turn her face against her, JUST BECAUSE BBB is more popular than AAA.

see??
simple.

ok..i'm totally deviating from the real point.totally fail if this was an english essay.

THE POINT IS, some ppl just have got NO LIVES to lead, and so they find one by sucking lives away from others.
this girl who started the rachael ray sucks website should perish in hell.
if you wanna hate, hate silently, no need to publicize big time.
ok.

p/s: YES, i wrote this whole post because i felt that i was racheal ray and that this girl who started the website had something against ME as well. LOL!!!!

ok fine, i'm just being too perasan in the first place, because i said that i was racheal ray.
sigh
oh well

the mind is now tired and can rest.

nitez ya'll

my first time

ok.
before minds run off anywhere, it was my first time working at a job yesterday.
yes, kick my ass and call me a spoilt brat, but i have NEVER worked in my life.

and yesterday would be a lame definition for work, but it IS work!! and only because i'm being paid in exchange for manpower. heh :P so it was my FIRST time being paid by someone other than my parents...

anyway, the job was all about monash university's info day.
it's kinda like an open day for interested parents and possible-future students to just come over, have a talk with the counselor and generally check out the new campus that they are so damn bloody proud of ..

so we started "work" at about 8, but only REALLY STARTED at 9 + am, where streams of parents and teenage kids walked in.
ok, revise.
i wouldn't say stream.
i'd say... drops of water from taps.
there weren't THATTT many ppl, surprisingly, but there WERE enough to keep all of us busy!!

our duties (as student helpers) are mainly that.
helpers who are students;
and ppl who help students.

we guide the parents and children to the general counselor and if they're interested, we give them a personalized tour of the whole new campus.
it's pretty funny, coz we had a briefing about it, and we were told what exactly it is that should be pointing out, and how monash is so proud of their bla bla bla.. -_-"

i mean, the commentary-tour thing was mainly for publicity purposes, i think.

but you know i think some ppl actually might wanna know, and some might not even care. like when i talked about the neuroscientist in monash, no one asked further questions and no one said WOW.

but ok, generally, it'd give an overall impression that monash do house very capable ppl but mostly it just shows that we're using him as a publicity stint. -_-"
hahah, most of the ppl just listened and smiled, but one lady was quick to point out that he is being used by monash for publicity sake (and for his research as well)

oh well, but it IS cool that he is based in monash though don't u think?
he's got an animal place as well for his speciments.
"his mice are cleaner that you" (????, 2007)

so anyhow, i walked around campus a total of about...10 times
-_-"
no kidding

all the while explaining the same things to different sets of ppl.
but i did enjoy my job though.
i talked for about an hour or so to one particular family, whose daughter was very interested in medicine (although only in form 4)..
me and the dad were exchanging experiences about when we were each studying overseas!
ahhaha..pretty cool dad i'd say.

and parents kept asking me about the med course -_-"
so i think i explained my view of things about 3 times.

i saw rachel later on in the afternoon!!!
HAHAHAH!!!
YOU LOOK THE SAMEEEE!!!! only with a SUPER STYLE HAIRSTYLE wehh!!!
wanted to try that style out, but was too chicken :(
hahahah

and then i saw a friend of my dad's.
he was looking for me, but didn't know my name, didn't know what i looked like(i think we've only seen each other 2-3 times) and basically tak tau saya langsung larrrhhh
so he described me to my friend as
1) mr ho's daughter
2) short
3) in aussie last year
4) monash med 2nd year

and shantz came running to me saying that daddy's friend was looking for me.
LOL!!!!!!!!!
but i knew who he was though..
don't know how.. LOL!

and while recapping the incident to my dad

sw: ohh..i saw uncle AAA yesterday at the info day
dad: ohhh??? how come??
sw: he was looking for mr Ho's daughter and didn't know my name or anything lah..my fren came and told me and i went to look for him after that.
dad: eh? how come your friend know's you're mr ho's daughter?
sw: coz my surname says so whattttt.
dad: how come your friend knows your surname??
sw: -_-" everybody knows everybody's surname lahh..and plus i'm the only Ho in med year 2. and he also said that i was short, so she knew loh..

my dad burst out laughing when i said short.
-_-"

and had a face that read... "your friend could identify that it was YOU that uncle AAA was talking about ONLY because he described you as being short."

IMPLYING...that my vertically challenged body is more well-known than my surname.
-_-"

haha..but he doesn't know, that he has also got them both

the surname

and the shortness factor.

so HAH!!!

:P:P:P

OSCEs TMR!

ok ppl, haven't been updating.
prac exam tmr!
simulated patients and examining them, time to get down and dirtayyy!!!
loads more to read... :S :S
when will i learn about procrastination..


*sigh*



btw, had a blood test examination like thing today, where we prick ourselves good and test them with the anti reagents

i'm B+.
nvr knew that.
heh


before i go, some goth-ness in the air..

trying for some spells..hoh

can you feel the EMO-NESS?!??!?!?

~ more pictures when the hols are here (that's tmr after 4pm!!) ~

WISH ME LUCK!!!

pls and thank you!!

:D

white models?asian models?

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you know how ppl always say the whites are more good looking than the asians??

well, yeah, i used to be one of those ppl.

but the term more good looking needs to be revised.

hell, some asians are damn bloody good looking, and some whites are bloody damn good looking as well, so how do you tell who looks better?

think about it..
the one thing that whites have that most asians don't, are features.

and when i say features, i mean features that STAND out.

something where, a mile away, you notice that something about someone, and you can't help but be attracted to it.

and lets try and list key features that each race is known for.
first up, the whites
1) nice bright coloured eyes
2) nice sharp nose
3) super really pearly whites (even those whom smoke!!!)
4) a nicer hair texture
5) height (generally taller than asians)
6) in some cases, fair (depending how fair)

then, the asians
1) brown/dark-brown eyes, bigger and large for indians and slits for chinese (majority!!!)
2) indians have nice high noses, chinese usually have flat ones
3) colour of skin (not too dark, not too fair). i think the asians beat this flat any time!!
4) uhm..... being lala?? (i'm kidding!!)

so you see, being good looking has NOTHING to do with STAND-OUT features, if you get my drift.
you can be good looking with no STAND-OUT features, and you can have a STAND-OUT feature and not be good looking

in the modeling industry, i assume that not ALL models are pretty.
sure, most of them are ATTRACTIVE, but when you get down to it, prolly someone across the street looks better than them.

so why do photographers prefer models the way they are??
because they have FEATURES
FEATURES
the one thing that attracts ppl to them
you put a pretty sweet girl next to a model who's ready for a show, tell me who will you look at first.
obviously the model.
why?
HEIGHT
and all the makeup that help essentuate FEATURES

see??
what do models have?
sultry lips
big cold stary eyes
nice sharp nose
nice jawline
and so on so on

and the thing is, models ARE objects of envy, because it's not easy being born with GREAT features.
sure, every bloody person can be pretty good-looking or okay looking
but to find someone with OUTSTANDING features??
you cari cari, sampai mati oso maybe not yet cari finish.

and you know, sometimes, features can be portrayed off as attitude.
models walk on catwalks with confidence and grace and air
THAT alone is a great feature to look at and learn from.

you see someone walking on the street with THAT vibe, tell me if you'll look or not. i think it's a turn on.
not that i'm turned on. :P

and if you think about it, the few things that ALL models have in common (regardless of race), are HEIGHT, BODY, and the ATTITUDE (meaning the confidence that they project whilst photo-shooting or runway-ing)

so how do you decide which model of which race is the prettier one?

you can't.

why?

because having more features doesn't mean you're more good looking and vice versa.

the only advantage that whites have over asian models are features, and that's about it.
other than that, i would assume they're all the same.

and no, you can't say that white models SHOULD be prefered over asian ones, just BECAUSEE they have features!!
hell, you don't give the smart alec on the street a job JUST BECAUSE he's smart and he's got papers to prove it!!!

it's just that ppl TEND to use white models because they have the features, the same way ppl tend to hire ppl for their intellectuality.

so cacat

i think the world needs more asian models.

HAH!
ok lah
i sound like i'm some bloody model genius..but i'm not
HELL i'm not even a model
but, thta's just the way i'm looking at things..
ppl are just so superficial at times.
sigh
anyhow, i'm DONE WITH HOUSE!!!!!
finished season 3, waiting for new episodes!!!
DARN IT
ok lah
i'm not gonna blab anymore, someone eating nutella while talking to me, don wan him to wait!
ok byeeeeeeeeeeeeee

emo and technology

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I miss melbourne.
and these are the times i thank god for technology, skype and the internet, which brought me on to reminiscing about EVERYONE in melbourne.

cameras are, i think, one of the greatest inventions in technology

it helps my ever failing memory to relive those moments of those days.

from people,

to dresscodes,

to food

to sceneries

and to completely pointless things..

but MAINLY, they show you how much you miss a person and how much you want them next to you again.

sigh.

time is everything...

akon?!?!?

right.
so because i don't read the newspaper, and i'm cut off from the media world (only because i hang out with house too much), i find out about akon dry-humping a 15-year old girl on stage about one month later.

my gawd.

shantz told me about in in uni, and everyone was so hyped up about it. (ok, not everyone, some kei-po ppl lahh basically)
apparently some of them have watched it already on TV! *gasp*
they showed it on tv??!?!?!
i wonder what the small kids watching those scenes were thinking off..

anyhow, i came home and researched widely, i repeat WIDELY on the topic. (if only i were that interested in my studies)

i looked up for all news about it, and some of them contradict one another.

one said that alleyne (the 15 year-old girl) enjoyed it, and that she's an amateur bum, quoting that at the end of the incident, she lied on the floor claiming it was fun..
the other said that allyene is blaming akon for it and she never wanted to be there(being thrown around) in the first place.

but mainly, the story goes like this.

alleyne lies to parents, ends up at an 18 and above club, gets picked to go on stage and dance with the rest , where upon winning they get a trip to africa (announced by akon), and after choosing the winner (which of course is alleyne), he reveals that HE IS AFRICA.
LOL!!
then the whole scene starts.

you know, i don't really know whose side i should be on.

the girl who dressed skimpily (and i mean REALLY skimpily...) and lied to her parents, and being underage at a club, and going up on stage, shaking her boottyyy seductively (pictures) and not really do much when being thrown around by akon except scream (frightened or excitement?)..

or

akon who does it at most of his concerts. yes, i actually looked it up, and he does it pretty often. i watched about 3 -4 videos of his different concerts doing the whole bump bump thingie with chicks. god, he's strong.

now when you think about it, why NOW?
he pulled the same sexual stunt (maybe not as violent, but still!!) at so many concerts, why didn't he get into trouble b4 this? why after THAT many times, now only ppl starting to bising?

apparently, it's because the girl is a MINOR, being 15 years old.

but dei.
you're at an 18 club
she looks like she's 20 and above..
and you've done it over a gazillion times, and you get no trouble at all except pleasure ( i swear i don't see the pleasure in it, except his muscles aching :S) and cheers from screaming fans..
how can u blame akon?

i'm not saying that his actions are right, coz they ARE wrong.
it's just that, if you want to say that they ARE wrong, they would have ALWAYS been wrong, not just now, but before as well.

so takkan before this, whoever who saw the other concerts couldn't give a damn just because the girls were 18 and above??!?
and how would you know that they're 18 and above?!?!?
and i don't really know how they actually got to finding our her age. either she complained, or daddy wasn't happy. her dad is a pastor btw.

ok fine
so you may say america or any other country has got a very wide opinion about things like this, and that ppl of 18 years and above can decide for themselves if they want to be humped on stage or not..

so if someone's 18, and does the same thing that allyene did, but turned out unhappy with akon's actions, that they can't complain coz hey..they're 18 in the first place and it's THEIR fault because they CHOSE to do so?!??!? and even if they DID complain, they wouldn't get as much attention as alleyne is getting just because she is 3 years younger and unable to decide for herself.??(seems to me she can decide what. she chose a very nice top rite? heh.)
age discrimination..

i tried looking for videos BEFORE the incident, just to see if she REALLY did NOTHING to stop it but i couldn't find any. everyone's just publishing the same old video..so i can't really comment much on her part.

the point is, who do you blame?
you can't say she didn't ask for it..
you can't say he didn't lie..

then i thought about it again.
WHO THE HELL IS AKON TO TREAT WOMEN THAT WAY?!?!??!?!
I'M surprised NO ONE from the women's association of america or wtv complained WAY WAYYY before alleyne made an appearance?!??!

and then i thought about it again..
celebrities have boring lives and wouldn't make news or be known if they were good samaritans.

NO ONE publishes front cover, "XXXXX donates 100,000 to charity" when publishers have a choice between that or 'BRAD-GELINA SPOTTED HOLDING HANDS, WHAT WILL HAPPEN TO THE EX-FRIENDS' STAR??'

paparazzis always publish bad pictures. NOT good ones.

tell me, true or not?

and celebrities have to compete with being famous and making head news, coz that just comes with the package.
if you're off the mags and movies for about...5 months, you'll be less remembered and will then have to compete again in the never ending race.
of course really famous old cool ppl like george clooney and nicole kidman and stuff don't really have to bother much with those, but then again, only time can tell.

it's the same as being a child star.
ppl remember you, then when you go all quiet and stop appearing in movies, ppl tend to forget you until your next big hit..

remember mc caulay mcculkin?(home alone, richie rich)
remember haley joel osment? (sixth sense)
remember shirley temple? ( i can't remember)
remember ...whoever else lahh

ppl BARELY remember them, but if they're known for being asses, ppl will ALWAYS remember them
hey, all publicity is good publicity. that's what they always say lah..i personally don't believe in it..

so then back to the topic.
akon is a convict.
he's proud of it.
and he's KNOWN for his whole cool convict-good-again act.
maybe ppl thought of him as being cool and nice and stuff, and he wasn't appearing enough in mags (except for being top in the list of rappers-you-know), and ppl just started to see him as any other celebrity..
so THIS would help him with fame rite??
i bet at least 10 mags would have covered this story front page and his fame would have shot up in an instant

hahhahah..
maybe he was doing the whole thing alll along, in hopes that at least SOMEONE would have spotted it and complained about it long time ago
hahha, so continue doing until u get on front covers lah!!
HAHAH!!
that's one way of thinking..but oh well.. up to you lah

if you don't agree, think of something and let me know.

and you wonder where akon gets his abs and muscles from??

now we know.


:P

EMO.... (not the bookshop u med donkeys..hahah!)..the feeling..

yes, althought i've got loadsss and heapsss and gargantuas and gargantuans of stuff to read for the exams, i'm here bloggin..
because i'm feeling damn bloody emotional and nostalgic.

was chatting away with saree online (about titanic and us rowing our boats..HAHA!) when my ipod played tong hua.

and it's been ages since i've heard tong hua!!!!!!!!!!
the moment i heard it, i raised the volume..
and after it played, i had an itch to go play it on the piano, and so i did. but i'm damn bloody rusty already..no surprise there...
then i played the fray's how to save a life, and yes, although it consists of only that few repetitive piano parts in the song itself, i love playing it anyhow.

then i got fed up coz i figured i was wasting my time.. when i should be studying..
so i came back to my room, and continued my chat with saree online (yes, i know it doesn't involve studying...haha!!) and my ipod played the fray how to save a life!!!!!!!!!!!!!

omgggggggggggggggggggggggg

these are the two songs i can sooooo absolutely refer tooooo
and they're on my lists of super super favourite songsssssssss
it reminded me of the old days, and i just got so damn bloody emo, i felt i HAD to blog about it. no idea why.

and then after the fray, they played green day's wake me up when september ends!!!!
ANOTHER FAVOURITE!!!!!!!

(so yes, my favourites playlist was playing, so technically i'd love all the songs , BUT WHAT ARE THE CHANCES THAT MY TWO SUPER DUPER DUPER SUPER FAVOURITE SONGS ARE BEING PLAYED BACK TO BACK?!??!?!?!??!?!!?? and there are some donkey songs in the favourites playlist that irked me after awhile but couldn't be bothered to delete them))))))))

ohh..and since we're on the topic, these are some of the playlists in my ipod
1) favourites
2) emo
3) hip and happening! LOL! -----> yes, it actually says LOL!
4) westlife
5) jay chou
6) chinese songs
7) jay chou1
8) simple plan

don't ask me why i have 2 jay chous

i always get bursts and a sudden hype to listen to one particular group/band/person

blah!

because i promised you a big ass picture and a special feature

one of the reasons why aussie was a great experience for me.
the one true friend anyone can ever find, and the one friend that everyone should appreciate the most.
one of the most meaningful things to happen to me, and obviously you taught me well, ehh??

EVERYBODYYYY..meet mr. P!! hahahah

aiyo annoying-ness

babi

these days i've spent about half my day looking through ppl's blogs.
not just ppl i know, but ppl whom i've never heard of before in my life.
yes.
that's how stupid i am.
ahahah!!

anyhow,
girls are super known for camwhoring.
yep yeppp..
i'm fine with that whole idea..

however, when they start getting overly poser-isque with it, omg. i wanna die i tell you.

it's totally fine if you pose and pose and pose and publish it all over your blog.
seriously, it's totally fine coz i like looking at pictures as such.
but omg.
totally CAN DIE when the pictures are all pan-cute (act cute) pictures!!!!

fine, the whole pout and look at the camera shots. love those.
fine, the whole flip hair stare at camera shots. brilliant.
BODOH!!! open eyes big big and smile in the tiny small feminine way and tilt head left right up down until leaning tower of pisa also fall down already, still not yet tilt head to find perfect angle kinda shots. OMG CAN DIE.
i shall create my own abbrevition. OMGCD.
super OMGCD.

totally fine if you take loads of those and store it in the comp for own viewing pleasure, and maybe once in awhile post a few up. fine fine.
in small amounts.

omg.....

some blogs have them all SPLASHED OVER!
it's as if someone who was carrying a whole bucketfull of act-cute pictures fell down and broke her crown and the pictures came tumbling after. non-stop.

i swear i don't know why i'm so annoyed by them, but i JUST AM!!!!

seeing all this faces being cute, it's causing me an ischaemic attack.

some of them are honestly very pretty and would look superb if they just smiled and ladida at the camera.
but nooooooo...open eyes big big, do that smirk, tilt head and pose..
mati saya.
and they're mostly EXPRESSIONLESS!!!
except for that stupid smirk. *growl*
cannot stand it cannot stand it

honestly, i do have a number of pictures like that (heh heh)..but i don't go PUBLISHING IT ON MY BLOG RITE!!!

aijorr..
i swear, at least 5-10 of the blogs i saw had pictures as such.
*faints*

you know, i used to like looking at dawn yang's xanga.
coz i LOVE her sense of fashion, and i'm pretty fine with her writing..
and well, i basically love looking at her, coz DAYUMN, she's pretty.
but then after awhile, i got used to the fact that she IS pretty.
and i got fed up looking at her.
why??
because all her pictures look the same, except for her clothing.
her same expression, her same stare, her same smile.

the upper half of her face never seems to change.
no wrinkled eyes from a smile and no creases on her forehead.

i dunno lah..
it's like she looks the same in all her pictures no matter how different her face is.
which i'm TOTALLY fine with.

but i think the one thing that irks me, is i NEVER get to see her teeth -_-"
yes, i know it sounds stupid, but i have always had this perception that smiles, real smiles, do show your teeth, even if slightly. (yes, my put-on smile shows my teeth, but the look has been perfected for my small eyes ok!! her eyes are huge!!!)

out of the gazillion pictures of her, i thnk only a few, maybe 5 - 6 show her teeth, slightly.
and i thnk those are the ones that are real and natural. and she looks gorgeous in those.

shouldn't let a pretty face go to waste.

i also want to be pretttttyyyyyyy *SOB SOB*

sigh.
study plan going down the drain period

the TRUE man

*edit: my god my god, i just updated my links and REARRANGED everybody's name so that it's in alphabetical order, and rewrote names coz before this, i put them in an alternate caps kinda way. like AbCdEfG. now it's plain abcdefg. nicer. HAH!
BABI I'M WASTINg MY tIme LAH!!
it took me soooo long.
and i only managed to update links that i CAN remember and i added in surnames that i CAN remember..i forgot some already.
i'm soo soo sorry for my failing memory..
and it doesn't help that tiba tiba my right click option couldn't work on blogger and i had to type it out!!!!
shiat.
what the hell am i doing with my time!!!!!!!! *

ok, it's damn weird because at the beginning, i was just reading chris' blog about truly being a man by being decisive and i left him a super long comment.

and at the end of the comment, i decided to just post it as a post on my blog instead.

you can read chris' post *here*. my comment is still there though. hahaaha

factors preventing the boys from being decisive
- BEING A CROWD PLEASER
- FEAR OF REJECTION
- FEAR OF BEING WRONG
- WANTING TO KEEP OPTIONS OPEN.

i believe, a TRUE man, is a man who can carry out all foresaid characters in an average way.

who tends to please the crowd but yet remembers his own stand - half a crowd pleaser

who has fear of rejection, but is brave enough to admit and be open to it, but yet modest about his wins and accepting of his loss - half a coward of fear

who has the fear of being wrong, but the confidence of being right - half the fear of being wrong

to keep options open....well....we're still young...so..

a true man SHOULD appreciate what he has and keep it with tender loving care.
a true man SHOULD know when to keep his options open and when to shut it close for life.

a true MAN knows this and admits to it.

honestly, we girls are also pretty indecisive about things like this as well, so who am i to say what a true man is or is not?

but it IS true when we say that a man has to be smart, articulate, caring, good husband material, sensitive, charming bla bla bal..but he has to have a hold of himself.
to not give in to every want, and to learn to stand up sometimes.
a standing view point is very impressive at times..

(ok larh..so this is wat i think....someone from the opposite sex:P)

YES, it IS damn hard being a guy.

THANK god i'm not one.

HHAHAHAHAHHAA

but then again, this world isn't perfect..

so most probably the PERFECT guy doesn't exist.

either that, or he's happily married, dead, or unborn.

sigh...

of my death..

*EDIT: ey ey, when i say my loved ones by my side while i die, i meant as company!! meaning they be there in presence while i die, and they walk away ALIVE! lol..i dont' mean company as in die for me!! but die with me, with me, meaning i die and they survive!!
LOL! so i guess i must be damn specific while wishing laaa...in case tiba tiba all the wishes gone wrong..then habis. LOL! *

the most horrible way to die, is to be forcefully pushed off the plane.

i was just scheming through this movie, the good sheperd, starring matt damon, angelina jolie and a few other famous actors.

just browsing through.

random clicks here and there, just to see what the movie is about.

til i came to this scene where a lady was on the plane reading a book and the pilot seemed to be getting out of his seat and heading towards the back while the other guy sitting behind her seemed to be curiously kicking at the door.

then the door flew open, and they both grabbed hold of her and threw her off the plane..

they showed her falling and falling and falling
arms flailing everywhere, kicking and just..... well, falling.

and i just sat in my chair and stared at the screen.

my god.

i tried imagining what it would be like being her.
being thrown off the plane while i was reading a book.
unbeknownst to her.
unbeknownst to me.

i swear, i'd be shit shit duper scared.
i'd have pissed in my pants already the moment i dropped out of the plane.
i'd be scared.
scared
scared..
SCARED!!!!!!!

then i tried thinking positive.

you know, since i'm already out of the plane, and i've got prolly a few minutes left before i die, must as well try and embrace the feeling of being able to fly rite...

so i tried imagining myself spreading my hands wide open (like a bird) while plunging metres and metres through the sky,

..
....
...

and i just couldn't.

i couldn't get myself to even IMAGINE me flapping my hands comically just to be able to fly.

i couldn't even seen the funny side of it, even though the chances of it happening is like, 0.1% to none.

i just knew that i'd die, and because i was dying, it didn't seem funny no matter how hard i flapped my "wings".

i was gonna DIE.

even if someone flew next to me and offered me a painless death (from being crushed to the ground), i'd still be terrified, but thankful, nonetheless.

yes, i would be THAT scared.

scared of the pain that may engulf me in a nanosecond?
maybe.
scared of the after-death-world?
maybe.
scared of dying alone with no one beside me to accompany me while i die?
definitely.

i thought about it for a little while.

you know, i wouldn't be so much afraid of dying if i just had the one or more person(s) whom i really truly love and care for by my side, holding me, and telling me that it's gonna be ok. (HAHA! irony. it's gonna be ok, when there's never gonna be a GONNA. GET IT? GET iT??lol) patting me and holding me.
just patting, and holding.

i suppose words of comfort on your death bed is one of the best things that may ever happen just moments before you die.
not the thought of having led a great life (though it may help a lil) but the thought of someone being there for you, even as you let your last breath go.

sometimes, just hearing the right words with every intention of comforting you is soothing enough, even if you know that it may not be true or that it may never come true.

..
....
..

and then i thought about it again.

maybe, words aren't all that important, coz what ARE words? and what CAN they really really do?

and then i figured.

maybe it's the presence and the human touch that is THE best thing to happen while lying at my death.

the feeling of being held and hugged and kissed and loved.
THAT'S what i want while i lie dying.

it's not that i want the ppl to shut up, but because i want the ppl to shut up and listen to what i have to say before i die. LOL.

but really.
it's the thought of someone being with me in times of trouble (or death) that is what means the most while i die. not the place i die, and not the way i die.
the person whom is WITH ME, while i die.

with someone as special by my side, i wouldnt be as afraid of facing death and i wouldn't be as afraid to die.
although i'm dying, but at least i died with someone holding me snugly.

it's like bliss for the dying-me.

which is why i think the best place to die (willingly or unwillingly) is in the arms of those whom you love and whom love you.

so i suppose the only time you can truly really tell who it is whom you treasure the most in life, is when you're about to die, and the one person whom you really want to see by your side, is THE one(s) in your life.

your treasure(s).

and that brings me back to my previous thought.

what IF, while i was falling from the plane, someone flew next to me and grants me two wishes, none of which i can wish to not die.

i'd wish for
1) a painless death
2) the ppl i love to be with me

obviously, this is MY sweet version of dying gruesomely.

so in reality, if i was falling from the plane, and someone were to fly next to me and ask me to choose between a painless death or having my loved ones by my side....

i'd honestly have to think about it a whole lot..
i'd think for like, 3 seconds, and as i am about to choose and decide on the latter option...

...
.....
....

i'd already have reached the ground and plummeted to my death, landing me in to so damn many pieces, that even the smallest bit couldn't be picked up by an ant.

that's life.

sigh.

what to do what to do....???

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yes, i can be so pessimistic at times, but oh welllll...

and don't worry.
i've already assigned my passwords and usernames to a trustable someone so that the news of my death can be published on my friendster, facebook, and of course my beloved blog.

so...when i die, you'd all know.

HEHEHHEHEH!!!!

and the best part is, you can still drop comments and testimonials on my facebook and friendster account because there WILL be someone managing them and approving them!!!

COOL RITE

so ppl, just keep those testimonials flowing even after i die...
who knows, i'd be able to read them k....

NYAK NYAK

p/s: and omg, it's damn potong steam if i die right after i post this. BLEH :S

:)

sometimes it's amazing how simple gestures can make you happy in an instant



that simple gestures get you all thoughtful and flushed



and that simple words makes you lose a heartbeat



happy valentine's day